12th letter

lights are out
i just woke up
there's no power
still i don't fuss
with you by my side
i've got all i need
love, kisses and body heat
all under these sheets
keeping you close
as the room temps drop
our bodies come together
to from into one
thankful that your near
my embrace pure and sincere
heavens brought you to me
this is for you my dear

the glass

some will say
'the glass is half full'
others will say
'the glass is half empty'
few will say
'there is no glass'
regardless of the view
the moment has passed
does ones opinion matter
which thought triggered the last?

adios

i'm lookin forward to the end
when its all said and done
no more heart/body aches
no wars to be won
all is quiet
overwhelmed with bliss
im leaving this body
dear earth, here's a gift
i leave with what i came with
nothing more nor less
spiritually free
happy....not a thing less
travel by thought
no body to hold me down
blast off into nothingness
as i look around
so many spirits
pass me one by one
the beginning of another journey
has just begun

10/29-3

dont know why i'm here
enjoyin where i'm goin
but i walks with a smile
cant you tell its shown?
rose in my pocket
limp in my step
t-shirt n baggy jeans
hair all a mess
wallet is empty
as is my cup
life keeps me thinkin
can't seem to get enough
no trophys no plaques
did even finish high school
searchin for a soul mate
to love this fool

10/29-2

I’m starting to lose faith

Its taking its time

Depletion of “it”

Made me lose my mind

To believe or not

Is a choice I’ve made

I’ve shifted my thoughts

The past slowly erased

Each moment is new

as progress of time

Keeps going on

These new feeling of mine

In search of the source

Whom claim this real

Life gets hectic

just another ordeal

10/29

Can you put it all behind ya

Step ahead with me

Forget about the others

Treat me like me

Hold no grudges

Cause I ain't from your past

They are them, I am I

How long will this last ?

Though times may change us

Start seeing things in a different way

I don’t dig it, I don’t like it

Is this how it’s gonna be?

How long is this line?

Where’s it all end?

Lovers under cover

Or simply just friends

hmmmmmm

the psychic told me
this day would come
but she forgot to mention
my mind would go numb
my heartbeat would change
i'll feel a bit stange
here lost inside
noise is the same
a new moon is coming
another day to pass
awakening from slumber
to create more trash
nerve endings are gone
i can't hear a thing
i try to speak
nothing comes out
whats come over me?
death....no doubt

turning the corner

as i walked in the room
she said 'close your eyes'
she walked up behind me
and blindfolded my face
the scent of fresh cut roses
candle wax
soft music
her perfume....filled the night air
she spoke softly
'lay back and relax'
as she unbuttoned my shirt
and began kissing my chest
unzipped the pants
down they fell
without seeing a thing
my senses became heightened
sitting stark naked
she could 'see' my excitement
'its gonna be a long night'
she said in my ear
'take off the blind fold,
come get me my dear'...

try to

greet the world with a smile
regardless of the day
no matter how much you ache
or amount of stress on brain
wounds will heal
dark times will pass
hold those you love most close
never kiss ass
dont let money change your heart
make each kiss last
be honest with oneself
defend those whom cant
help out children
also the gramps
words can heal
so can a hug
if you cant face life 'as is'
there is no help from drugs

finale

you can say what ya want
it wont change my day
you can kick, punch, stab and torture me
i dont break that way
dont fold when i bluff
never actin tough
indisputable accuracy
takin out one is never enough
live like a monk n mind my biz
hurt one i love? nice knowin ya kid
some batteries run out
while others get disconnected
no one asked me to come
this part is undirected

2day

twas on of those days
where everything was just right
a day for the books
to reflect on, one lonely night
good company/food and wine
whole nine yards
day couldn't have been more perfect
wouldn't have changed a thing
as asking for more
would have been over-asking
sun kept us warm
wind kept leaves shaking
in the middle of this winery
simply breath taking
simplicity of life
keeps me smiling on
a change in the weather
could have only done harm
didn't hit traffic
smooth ride home
only sad part....
the day is now gone

sketch

i'll live on in your memory
whenever you need me
cause i'm not good enough
for you to see me
just another shadow
an image in view
another pic in your mind
with emotions attached too
close but distant
like the earth and sun
when we were together
i was your number1
odd how things change
the paths we've taken
enjoy life without me
with you....i wouldn't make it

unexpected

damm that girl is fine
i think my heart just stopped!
someone call a doc
get this thing to start!
the look in her eyes
just tore off my clothes
seductively walking closer
whats on her mind...who knows
she stops and stands next to me
i just froze
she opens her mouth
'order me a drink'
'Ha your funny!
but you can buy me a drink'
without a blink
she orders us a double
the beginning of a night
filled with trouble....

my aunt said: The best way to express love is through touch.........stir it up

me

i'm everything and nothing
all at once
the change that fell out your pocket
which was gonna buy you lunch
cool soft breeze
on a hot summer night
your TKO you needed
during your 1st fight
nothing but kind words
on a day you wish would end
one who makes you smile
when you've lost a good friend
that one special move
just before you scream
a living reality
man of your dreams

her

girl you came into my life
eyes so persuasive
a soft and seductive touch
ever time more amazin
the way you made me feel
the things that you did
keep my heart smiling
even brought up kids
i can see us gettin old
being there for one another
little ones callin me dad
you a loving mother
girls like you
there simply aren't many of ya

behind ya

one day
when you look back
you'll remember me
and what we had
the times we laughed
plus love we shared
in each others arms
we didn't have a care
even when times were rough
we saw the light
keeping my head up
day and night
but somehow it changed
now its all gone
you went and found
yourself a new home
though i miss you
but i dont lose sleep
to many broken promises
none did you keep

the lier

it all started with lies
and it never quit
one after another
where's the end of it?
unsure what to believe
truth seldom told
you dug a hole full of lies
from what you've shown
we grew apart
then i drew a line
you put someone before her
me...i'd rather die
to leave the one
i love most
i must say goodbye
we were so close
the ghost in my heart
i'll never know why

seduction at its best!

i do love to dance and watch people whom enjoy dancing...great example w/great music

the rabbits ears really make the sketch!

pumping blood

she whispered in my ear
sending chills down my spine
telling me what she's gonna do
blowing out my mind
my heart began to race
as she kissed me all over
moisture of her tounge
now with goosebumps all over
she took her sweet time
showed me her tricks
lollipop sux
with ice cream licks
eager to please
only pleasure on her mind
she devoured me whole
this woman so fine

jumping ship

as i bid farewell
to the place i will depart
say goodbye to my loved ones
searching for a new start
the destination is unknown
to a place i've never been
seeking to change
my person from within
i've ran from the past
praying to change the present
but a troubled mind never forgets
all the wrong i've done to my brothers
i'm welcomed to new faces
whom are unknown to my past
i settle in for the bumpy ride
too see how long it will last

un-victorious

the battle is won
there is no one left
gun in my hand
bullet in my leg
as i look upon destruction
i see nothing but death
i'm unsure what was accomplished
with all these people laid to rest
somewhere far away
politicians are celebrating
none here or near enough
for my bullet which is waiting
'we die' for our country
but get nothing in return
another forgotten name
another lost soul
our families remember us
for all those 'things' that we once did
but if they had seen what i saw
they wouldn't know how to live

fearless

there are those whom are fearless
staring death in the face
doing what they do
any time, any place
life on the line
they keep pushing on
some have guns
others with swords
an army on hand
always starts wars
the goal is to win
to see another day
fearless are few
they are made numb
killing their fellow man
when their lives have just begun

battle

the warmth in ones heart
isn't found by the mind
a conflict of interest
since the beginning of time
the never ending battle
of 'what to do'
follow my heart/follow my mind
just don't wanna look like a fool
but as the years pass
the mind learns more
it see's the heart as a place
of heartache and bore
without love in ones heart
a mind takes over
living selfishly, un-morally
over and over

illusion

there she lay
in a room full of candles
lust in her mind
eyes of a vandal
setting up the bait
prepping for the kill
a night unforgotten
sweat, moans, thrusts, friction & thrills
i still see the imagines
imbedded in my mind
of that one night
i made her mine
we gave it our all
no room for any less
what a sight to see
her naked body on top me
radiating lust
her scent filled the air
nothing but her on my mind
not even a worry or a care

the end

with my hearts final beat
i take my last breathe
body goes limp
mind goes dead
pass through the darkness
into the light
finally leaving
my body behind
my spirit set free
off into space
to gods front door
i'm welcomed with embrace
no more worries
no more pain

choices

someone told me 'the path to happiness'
was right down this road
i looked down it
saw everything paved with gold
trees had diamond chandaliers
plants grew 100 dollar bills
i saw the madness before me
it gave me the chills
'where's all the beauty' i asked
the person simply couldn't compute
'money wont make me happy,
is it that hard to understand?'
looking at me confused
with a blank stare
pointed the other direction
'your path is over there'
moutains kissed the sky
eagles soared free
a cool breeze hit my skin
'this is the path for me!'
after the 1st step
i was free

hmmmmmmm

certain situations
create certain outcomes
i was confused,
disoriented and disarrayed
of the unfolding events
that happened that day
what was the trigger?
that set you off
you became a different person
wanting to get off
but was it the real you?
waiting to get out
that worked its way through
needing to scream and shout
i put it away
with many other things
hidden somewhere mentally
this stays in between

One day....even if its my last...

Ray Barreto - Acid

change

Do we change?
if so how?
as we age, externally we 'grow'
yet the state of 'being human' doesn't change
we encounter experiences
those mold us into what we are now
we act, walk, talk, react, interact different
but everyone is identical 'internally' (of course there are abnormalities)
are we an equation in constant flux?
one molecule effecting another
if so....is there a goal?

''I''

whom is the "I"?
is it the ''I'' that you see?
what created the ''I''?
is it the same ''I'' that ''I'' see?
does it have skin, is it real?
does it know what it is to feel?
is the ''I'' simply a projection of the mind?
chemical/electrical reactions happening constantly?
if my mind controls what ''I'' say, do, how ''I'' react or feel,
then what controls the mind?

1st step

if i gave you the world
would it be enough
would you keep wanting
piling up the stuff
filling our home
with needless things
a wasteland of 'wants'
help fill nothing
why cant it just be me?
here by your side
show me your forever
until the day 'we' die

shadows

there are those whom fear their shadows
imagines from our past
a person we once were
lifestyle which didn't last
things we cannot erase
people we once hurt
lurking in these shadows
nothing has a face
we hid our true selves
fearing 'what would they think'
our actions once madness
i still see with each blink