ryme 12.26.11

i was raised on lies
to be like everyone else
go to school
stay out of trouble
get into college
keep a good health
land a nice job
pay all the bills
get a house
a car
wife
n kids
buy a cookie cutter home
just to blend in
but i'm the black sheep here
just dont fit in
most think i'm crazy
going against the grain
life without color
thought without the brain
unplugged from the matrix
i see them run around
unaware of reality
a path
they dont dare touchdown
but why me?
who lit the fuse to this bomb
blew out the side of my head
more clear
yet more is gone

hoy

as the years have past
every earths rotation counts as a new
i wake up to the noise
the nothingness i void
grew up poor
but i never knew it
looking back on those days
i'm sure i showed it
yet the rich are most poor
and many poor rich
our outlook on life differs
just like the little and big dipper
i became a stoner
now a loner
kickin rymes in my head
full time joner
humans feel distant
like from another realm
i walk this earth smilin
until the end....

path to my mind

the path isnt deep
just under my skull
its hard as a rock
to help guard it all
info of life
stored within
buncha mushy shit
if you dare to look in
theres not much there
some dust, cob-webs
and a box
with nothing in it
i'm leaving my mind behind
i found it useless
its only brought pain
sadness to the unwilling

final beat

on the day i die
i wish to be cremated
set my ashes free
so they can 4ever ride the breeze
i wanna be one with the earth
to be with my 2nd mother
the one whom gives us life
and new days to live
send my love to all
this my dying wish

MLK

I heard of a man
who once had a dream
of racial equality
brotherhood amongst colors
where all race played as one
the world latino black
white and yellow were unheard
when will this day come
and togetherness can be universal
no one chooses their race
nor color
so why should they be judged
4 a choice no one can change?

X (song)

i once had a woman
fine as she could be
told me she loved me
yeah, you know the story
she feed me all this bull
told me this and that
talked about forever
everytime we'd chit chat
then the picture became clear
and she proved it was a lie
talking about loven me
till the day she died
shes still alive
lovin someone else
damm that blasted women
blasted woman from hell
so here i play
completely broken hearted
mentally lost
emotionally crushed
blues hurtin so bad
but i'm just gettin started!

past: unknown date (08 ish)

Many have spoken
many haven't be heard
many have shown
many saw a blur
some see the light
while others view dark
some are ready to sacrifice
many, nothing at all
i've seen em insane
n some with no brain
i held new life
n i've mourned the dead
i had real
but it was a fake
the chance i took for love
was it a mistake?

past: 12-14-08

you told me you loved me
i did all i could
you left me broken hearted
hopeless & lost
and feeling blue
how can you do this
create all this pain
tellin me you still love me
yet you show no shame
cut at the heart
bleeding it all out
tears which form a river
my spirit let out
a love
i am without

sight

they say 'beauty is in the eye of the beholder'
yet he has no eyes
with his third eye sight
he sees the light
deep in the darkness of one
regardless of day or night
sadness and smiles
seem to come and go
energy one puts off
is a light house of lumen
unsure where it comes from
as its something I feel
i see it in all humans
without trying or will

timelessness

sitting in awareness
where time doesn't exist
the midn calms down
as i let in bliss
a state of nowhere
i feel most alive
trapped in this body
gravity to hold me down
i see myself looking
almost from a distant
life doesn't seem as distortated
yet the mind returns
in conflict i stay