my cousin n I

two peas
in two separate pods
brought into this world
just a few months apart
from the same roots
within the same garden
we watched each other sprout
cared.... regardless
you took the lead
i followed another path
you set the bar
i tried to catch up
distant we are
mentally not far
unplugged by choice
from the world that conditions
brainwashed our minds
but out hearts still listen

reality

i learned one day
that nothing was real
things we smell, taste
hear, see and feel
a process within ones mind
an equation which never ends
until its shut down
to be reborn again
a vicious cycle
time and time again
trapped in this madness
along with family and unknown friends
an mathematical computation
multiplied to infinity
until i find myself typing
and you reading

aging

as the years have past
mind begins to change
some are lucky
others, never the same
off goes the mind
body slowly follows
years of abuse
leaves the one hollow
its a sad sight to see
the ones close to your heart
dementia, cancer, heart condition
all in all the same
does it make one suffer?
or more the ones that watch?
to see someone slowly fade away
unable to stop times clock
i'm going to miss my aunt
i carry her close to my heart

passer by

the beauty of a woman
frozen in my mind
curves, complexion
always brings a smile
its like time stood still
as i saw you pass
1st and last glace
just a gaze from my past
our eyes spoke
as we went on
forever in my mind
your beauty never lost

there's days i remember
when the world wasn't so kind
times that have past
when i lost my mind
clouds rolled in
lighting lit the sky
thunder gave me chills
living without will
a particle of dust
floating through the air
carried by the wind
simply without a care
letting things go
not mentally holding on
freedom from bonds
shackles which held me down
a bird on his/her 1st flight
seeing it with all my might

spilled milk

i've been lost for a while
dont mind it one bit
confusion and clarity
only seem to exist
i bounce back and forth
and back around again
i've found life odd
from beginning to end
there is no path
no start nor finish
we come and leave with nothing
these human atoms will eventually diminish
cycle of life will continue
suffering, happiness
hate and love within us
how many people 'live'
how many just live on
in a hazed mind
emotionless, heartless
soul-less on bond
its a train that doesn't stop
let you can always step off
hope to return once more
only to find yourself reading this blog
yet again.......

spining on its axis

days go by
as i sit and wonder
what path to take
before i go under
so many choices
outcomes unknown
time keeps on passing
past each time zone
repetition in days
circle i've walked
like watchin the same movie pass
sun up till dark
another rotation
i see the sun again
life passes by
moon comes for night
unsure, unsure,
unsure, unsure