ryme

with this bottle of wine
i might get you off my mind
put all our memories
in the past...
move on with my life
find me a wife
a soul mate
until my final breathe
one to withstand all the tests
lay upon my chest
sad, glad, lost
yet connected
my shimmering light
my voice of reason
through every season
she keeps my heart beatin
knows i'll fuck up
always have my back
face the world
hand in hand
we mate for life
love throughout the night
longing to hold her tight
each day....and each nite

sight

dont look to far ahead
be aware of whats behind
see what comes at you
each and every time
flowers that we pass
breathes that we took
hellos become good byes
as day becomes night
inhale the good
rid yourself of bad
opinions are just opinions
bad is just like good
3 sides to every story
sometimes more
blind with sight
numb to feel
heart still pounds
though nothings real

pain

its amazing what people endure
or the pain they create
such a selfish race
the only on earth with hate
what happened to love
where did it go
its not something we work for
its something physically unshown
its what connects us all
as we are all one
a multiplied equation
over and over till done
society, cultures, religious, cults, groups
mentally mold us
we pass on these teachings
to the little ones that look up to us
man will not change
until the end is in sight
pray we find a way
out of darkness
into the light

unfolding

as the days pass on
my skin cell wither away
mentally transforming
as i physically decay
i've found true to be refreshing
like my daily night sleeps
reborn every second
time and time again
as i look back
and see what i once was
i wonder how we get so lost
from this mental programming amongst
we never 'own' anything
life is recycle
everything we take in
has to be given back
our time here
is merely a chance
to see how we 'turn out'
to see what we 'become'
we are the saviors
also the destroyers
our time on earth is short
as is everyones before/after us

love/hate

tis better to be hated for being oneself
than to be loved for not

POST IT ALL

for those whom follow
and those whom know my name
when my final days in this body come
post this blog
let everyone know my name
people aren't yet ready
for the me and i am
i try to help other
to find their own path
but i dont have their answer
as answers is all they ask
like cheating on a test
refusing to take the time
to walk their own path
and create their own line

feelin down

when the world gets ya down
n ya dont know what to do
start to lose your mind
start feelin kinda blue
then ya start thinkin back
on all the smiles you've had
N ya notice
that it all
really aint all that bad
times can bring ya down
once the mind lets up
you find a smile inside
changes you all up
after that
life is never the same
you see the madness that once was
like a cloud inside your brain
yet the mind hacks in
refusing to give up
the smile shines on
deep from within

limitiations

Ones mind is like a blade of grass
growing on concrete
pushing and trying constantly
to grow beyond its limits

silent eyes

a moment of silence
as our eyes meet
earth stops rotating
heart stops to beat
world seems so quiet
as you draw near
lost in your eyes
soul becomes crystal clear
words aren't spoken
a touch so soft
our lips finally meet
my heart takes off
inside i melt
outside is at peace
mentally gone
emotionally at ease
the things she can do
with just a glace
flustered with heat
frozen in this trance

Psycho Realm-Dysfunctional

ryme 12.26.11

i was raised on lies
to be like everyone else
go to school
stay out of trouble
get into college
keep a good health
land a nice job
pay all the bills
get a house
a car
wife
n kids
buy a cookie cutter home
just to blend in
but i'm the black sheep here
just dont fit in
most think i'm crazy
going against the grain
life without color
thought without the brain
unplugged from the matrix
i see them run around
unaware of reality
a path
they dont dare touchdown
but why me?
who lit the fuse to this bomb
blew out the side of my head
more clear
yet more is gone

hoy

as the years have past
every earths rotation counts as a new
i wake up to the noise
the nothingness i void
grew up poor
but i never knew it
looking back on those days
i'm sure i showed it
yet the rich are most poor
and many poor rich
our outlook on life differs
just like the little and big dipper
i became a stoner
now a loner
kickin rymes in my head
full time joner
humans feel distant
like from another realm
i walk this earth smilin
until the end....

path to my mind

the path isnt deep
just under my skull
its hard as a rock
to help guard it all
info of life
stored within
buncha mushy shit
if you dare to look in
theres not much there
some dust, cob-webs
and a box
with nothing in it
i'm leaving my mind behind
i found it useless
its only brought pain
sadness to the unwilling

final beat

on the day i die
i wish to be cremated
set my ashes free
so they can 4ever ride the breeze
i wanna be one with the earth
to be with my 2nd mother
the one whom gives us life
and new days to live
send my love to all
this my dying wish

MLK

I heard of a man
who once had a dream
of racial equality
brotherhood amongst colors
where all race played as one
the world latino black
white and yellow were unheard
when will this day come
and togetherness can be universal
no one chooses their race
nor color
so why should they be judged
4 a choice no one can change?

X (song)

i once had a woman
fine as she could be
told me she loved me
yeah, you know the story
she feed me all this bull
told me this and that
talked about forever
everytime we'd chit chat
then the picture became clear
and she proved it was a lie
talking about loven me
till the day she died
shes still alive
lovin someone else
damm that blasted women
blasted woman from hell
so here i play
completely broken hearted
mentally lost
emotionally crushed
blues hurtin so bad
but i'm just gettin started!

past: unknown date (08 ish)

Many have spoken
many haven't be heard
many have shown
many saw a blur
some see the light
while others view dark
some are ready to sacrifice
many, nothing at all
i've seen em insane
n some with no brain
i held new life
n i've mourned the dead
i had real
but it was a fake
the chance i took for love
was it a mistake?

past: 12-14-08

you told me you loved me
i did all i could
you left me broken hearted
hopeless & lost
and feeling blue
how can you do this
create all this pain
tellin me you still love me
yet you show no shame
cut at the heart
bleeding it all out
tears which form a river
my spirit let out
a love
i am without

sight

they say 'beauty is in the eye of the beholder'
yet he has no eyes
with his third eye sight
he sees the light
deep in the darkness of one
regardless of day or night
sadness and smiles
seem to come and go
energy one puts off
is a light house of lumen
unsure where it comes from
as its something I feel
i see it in all humans
without trying or will

timelessness

sitting in awareness
where time doesn't exist
the midn calms down
as i let in bliss
a state of nowhere
i feel most alive
trapped in this body
gravity to hold me down
i see myself looking
almost from a distant
life doesn't seem as distortated
yet the mind returns
in conflict i stay

insane

over the past 14ish years
I've become something
i saw when i was young
a state of mind
or a state of being
a place where i unplug myself
from the world that is around me
I've always claimed
'live outside the box,
just know the box always effects you'
is something i have found
more and more true
as i rise to met and greet
the sun and moon
'We' are living all wrong
yet, 'we' don't see it
blinded by lies
tv, computers, smart phones
newspapers, media, our 'friends'
we plant ourselves in the norm
become another blade of grass
in a open plain field
looking from afar
i feel like I'm insane
seeing things from another light
unplugging myself from my brain
'seeing' without judging
as a clean chalkboard
constantly wiped clean
the ever changing photo
or picture frame which is never the same
i have yet to figure out
is it me
or the world
whom is on the path
of insane

socitey vs head vs heart

from little
the world around us instills 'values'
those are the 'things' we are made to believe
this is wrong and that is right
over time the mind begins to question 'it'
you see flaws in the system
truths become uncovered
more and more lies come to the light
then one day
it all changes again
the heart is struck with a pain
unlike one ever experienced before
the mind tries drastically to understand
yet the heart aches in pain
a pain without end
society says 'you'll be ok, it will pass'
mentally you live in a daze
lost in the confusion between heart and mind
society seems useless
yet you go back to find answers
believing answers can be found by 'asking'
instead of 'searching'
the seconds, minutes, days, weeks and years
all pass us by
some never change
but since that day
you've never been the same
the heart still aches
mind still doesn't understand
society has found a pill for your pain
all of a sudden
you see that it is the world
that is in pain

one's wants

'i want this and i want that'
we're taught, 'you'll have to go to school for that'
educated full of knowledge
yet it has no true meaning
its a mental stimulation
for the mind and its being
equations and answers
for papers and pens
take the test over
you'll do even better
try and try again
a competition to the top
against your fellow man
'so i can one day be a boss'
is what i hear them say
'the more i make,
the happier i will be'
filling life with one's wants
an emptiness deep inside of ye

third eye

my third eyes sees it
almost clear as day
it gives me all the signs
then it goes away
it happened all last night
preparing me for the worse
hours later it happened
not surprised
is all i can say
i stopped making plans
as i've let myself down before
i've been mentally lost
my mind can be quite the whore
it moves faster than i wish
its like it and i battle
i know it has its purpose
everything has a reason
so the fighting goes on
season after season

permanent mental scar

They say 'some wounds never heal'
i personally found it untrue
yet a person i love dearly
fights with her mental scar
to young to understand
she has done nothing wrong
the pain she has endured
could 'mentally' kill a man
emotional confusion
engulfed in thought
a loving spirit
what a pain others have brought
some days i just don't understand
times i sit back and observe
where did this world go wrong
lost is the mind
of this innocent human
i love so dear