limitiations

Ones mind is like a blade of grass
growing on concrete
pushing and trying constantly
to grow beyond its limits

silent eyes

a moment of silence
as our eyes meet
earth stops rotating
heart stops to beat
world seems so quiet
as you draw near
lost in your eyes
soul becomes crystal clear
words aren't spoken
a touch so soft
our lips finally meet
my heart takes off
inside i melt
outside is at peace
mentally gone
emotionally at ease
the things she can do
with just a glace
flustered with heat
frozen in this trance

Psycho Realm-Dysfunctional

ryme 12.26.11

i was raised on lies
to be like everyone else
go to school
stay out of trouble
get into college
keep a good health
land a nice job
pay all the bills
get a house
a car
wife
n kids
buy a cookie cutter home
just to blend in
but i'm the black sheep here
just dont fit in
most think i'm crazy
going against the grain
life without color
thought without the brain
unplugged from the matrix
i see them run around
unaware of reality
a path
they dont dare touchdown
but why me?
who lit the fuse to this bomb
blew out the side of my head
more clear
yet more is gone

hoy

as the years have past
every earths rotation counts as a new
i wake up to the noise
the nothingness i void
grew up poor
but i never knew it
looking back on those days
i'm sure i showed it
yet the rich are most poor
and many poor rich
our outlook on life differs
just like the little and big dipper
i became a stoner
now a loner
kickin rymes in my head
full time joner
humans feel distant
like from another realm
i walk this earth smilin
until the end....

path to my mind

the path isnt deep
just under my skull
its hard as a rock
to help guard it all
info of life
stored within
buncha mushy shit
if you dare to look in
theres not much there
some dust, cob-webs
and a box
with nothing in it
i'm leaving my mind behind
i found it useless
its only brought pain
sadness to the unwilling

final beat

on the day i die
i wish to be cremated
set my ashes free
so they can 4ever ride the breeze
i wanna be one with the earth
to be with my 2nd mother
the one whom gives us life
and new days to live
send my love to all
this my dying wish

MLK

I heard of a man
who once had a dream
of racial equality
brotherhood amongst colors
where all race played as one
the world latino black
white and yellow were unheard
when will this day come
and togetherness can be universal
no one chooses their race
nor color
so why should they be judged
4 a choice no one can change?

X (song)

i once had a woman
fine as she could be
told me she loved me
yeah, you know the story
she feed me all this bull
told me this and that
talked about forever
everytime we'd chit chat
then the picture became clear
and she proved it was a lie
talking about loven me
till the day she died
shes still alive
lovin someone else
damm that blasted women
blasted woman from hell
so here i play
completely broken hearted
mentally lost
emotionally crushed
blues hurtin so bad
but i'm just gettin started!

past: unknown date (08 ish)

Many have spoken
many haven't be heard
many have shown
many saw a blur
some see the light
while others view dark
some are ready to sacrifice
many, nothing at all
i've seen em insane
n some with no brain
i held new life
n i've mourned the dead
i had real
but it was a fake
the chance i took for love
was it a mistake?

past: 12-14-08

you told me you loved me
i did all i could
you left me broken hearted
hopeless & lost
and feeling blue
how can you do this
create all this pain
tellin me you still love me
yet you show no shame
cut at the heart
bleeding it all out
tears which form a river
my spirit let out
a love
i am without

sight

they say 'beauty is in the eye of the beholder'
yet he has no eyes
with his third eye sight
he sees the light
deep in the darkness of one
regardless of day or night
sadness and smiles
seem to come and go
energy one puts off
is a light house of lumen
unsure where it comes from
as its something I feel
i see it in all humans
without trying or will

timelessness

sitting in awareness
where time doesn't exist
the midn calms down
as i let in bliss
a state of nowhere
i feel most alive
trapped in this body
gravity to hold me down
i see myself looking
almost from a distant
life doesn't seem as distortated
yet the mind returns
in conflict i stay

insane

over the past 14ish years
I've become something
i saw when i was young
a state of mind
or a state of being
a place where i unplug myself
from the world that is around me
I've always claimed
'live outside the box,
just know the box always effects you'
is something i have found
more and more true
as i rise to met and greet
the sun and moon
'We' are living all wrong
yet, 'we' don't see it
blinded by lies
tv, computers, smart phones
newspapers, media, our 'friends'
we plant ourselves in the norm
become another blade of grass
in a open plain field
looking from afar
i feel like I'm insane
seeing things from another light
unplugging myself from my brain
'seeing' without judging
as a clean chalkboard
constantly wiped clean
the ever changing photo
or picture frame which is never the same
i have yet to figure out
is it me
or the world
whom is on the path
of insane

socitey vs head vs heart

from little
the world around us instills 'values'
those are the 'things' we are made to believe
this is wrong and that is right
over time the mind begins to question 'it'
you see flaws in the system
truths become uncovered
more and more lies come to the light
then one day
it all changes again
the heart is struck with a pain
unlike one ever experienced before
the mind tries drastically to understand
yet the heart aches in pain
a pain without end
society says 'you'll be ok, it will pass'
mentally you live in a daze
lost in the confusion between heart and mind
society seems useless
yet you go back to find answers
believing answers can be found by 'asking'
instead of 'searching'
the seconds, minutes, days, weeks and years
all pass us by
some never change
but since that day
you've never been the same
the heart still aches
mind still doesn't understand
society has found a pill for your pain
all of a sudden
you see that it is the world
that is in pain

one's wants

'i want this and i want that'
we're taught, 'you'll have to go to school for that'
educated full of knowledge
yet it has no true meaning
its a mental stimulation
for the mind and its being
equations and answers
for papers and pens
take the test over
you'll do even better
try and try again
a competition to the top
against your fellow man
'so i can one day be a boss'
is what i hear them say
'the more i make,
the happier i will be'
filling life with one's wants
an emptiness deep inside of ye

third eye

my third eyes sees it
almost clear as day
it gives me all the signs
then it goes away
it happened all last night
preparing me for the worse
hours later it happened
not surprised
is all i can say
i stopped making plans
as i've let myself down before
i've been mentally lost
my mind can be quite the whore
it moves faster than i wish
its like it and i battle
i know it has its purpose
everything has a reason
so the fighting goes on
season after season

permanent mental scar

They say 'some wounds never heal'
i personally found it untrue
yet a person i love dearly
fights with her mental scar
to young to understand
she has done nothing wrong
the pain she has endured
could 'mentally' kill a man
emotional confusion
engulfed in thought
a loving spirit
what a pain others have brought
some days i just don't understand
times i sit back and observe
where did this world go wrong
lost is the mind
of this innocent human
i love so dear

diamond ring

while at a table the other day
two women were chatting about one of the women's rings
'its so big, so shiny and sparkly'
the woman's face lite up knowing the other was jealous
i found it sad
does she think her husband would love her less?
does the ring symbolize something?
its a cash transaction
for a rock which there are millions more around
the ring represents 'an idea'
that created feeling
the one which overtook her emotions when others 'oooooo' over it
i see the ring and i see food, shelter, water, family picnic, clothes
there is nothing a woman could give me to show me her love
she simply must 'show' me
in her own special way
its something the mind cannot comprehend
nor do i expect most would
everyone needs 'proof' of their love
seeing 2 people together
happily in love
is all the proof i need

my family

as the years have passed
we've drifted father and farther away
'going on your own' they say
'starting a family, white picket fence, 9 to 5' they say
is life a cycle of brainwashing
do we repeat the same thing
generation after generation after generation
finding that what the previous did to be
'the way of life'
it saddens me
to say the very least
the ones we hold close to our hearts
are bit a short 'physical' distance away
yet couldn't tell you a thing about whats going on in ones life
i haven't the slightest
its not for not trying
i just dont know
anymore......

real

what is real?
is it something we can touch?
or something you see?
science says it has to be 'physical'
a form of some sort
the so called 'black matter'
today i found that nothing is real
if its something we see, hear, feel, touch or taste
in essence its all chemical reactions
can atoms 'see' us?
we can see millions of light years away
with the all mighty Hubble telescope
yet we cannot seem to find a cure for selfishness
greed, hate, discrimination, anger
there is no cure for something that doesn't exist
anymore than there are answers a distance so far away
maybe the Hubble is a microscope
and not a telescope?
yet whatever it may find
how do we know its real?

death

if we choose to live
we also choose to die
death seems like the more fearful thing
for most humans
doctors become 'gods'
bringing the dead back to life
however,
does such actions change futures path?
if someone was suppose to die
but in the end did not
then what?
or was it suppose to be a scare
to awake them?
i embrace death
a wonder about the nothingness
there was something before me!?
or is it a circle (reincarnation)?
the path to life is through death
as they say....
no one leaves alive

foliage

the leaves are a changing
some have hit the ground
red, yellows, browns
colors are WOW!
people dont seem to notice
change that takes place
shedding of a trees leaves
just like skin cells we change
it has to happen
we must rid of the old
to make way for the new
do trees shiver?
do trees shake?
do they beg for water?
what will it take?
......when the last tree falls
you stand by and watch
or will you be planting seeds
....so life itself
can go on

change

you pray all you can
and hope for the best
through darkness
light is found
though the mind
is buried underground
lost somewhere
in the nothingness that is
misunderstood emotions
actions and thoughts
but it is this same mind
that holds her back
causing chaos and destruction
other fear attack
temporary darkness
she shes not what she does
hurting those trying to help
when all is needs is love
threats come from high and low
as your army moves in
fighting over this lost one
this one...
little kid

tone

these words cut through the air
splitting cells and hairs
into the ear canal
where the mind dwells
electrical impulses
make sense of it all
the words dont actually
dont make sense at all
you put them together
make of it as you wish
the words that ive spoken
this mind is a mess